Life for someone with bipolar disease is often extremely hard. I am going to explain some things about a typical bad day. While not everyone has the same symptoms, this is still typical of a severe bipolar low.

It is time to wake up, thoughts run thru your head as to what you want to do. These thoughts are not of a normal person, many times they are thoughts of all the bad things the day can and will bring.

They are thoughts of the phone ringing from bill collectors as a result of a manic episode and the bad decisions you made. They are thoughts of dealing with people, how
you just want to be left alone, even by family. Often times you are thinking about being dead, saying to yourself why did I have to wake up. If you are lucky enough to be working and it is a workday you have to pull every ounce of strength and willpower you have to get up from your bed.

If you manage to not just decide to stay there, everything you do from after getting up from bed is hard work. Do you shower, maybe, most often not. Do you eat, not likely for at least some hours after being up out of your bed. Do you care what you need to wear, or if it is clean, most often not. Your mind keeps going back to thoughts of staying in the house, thinking of all the bad things work will bring. That little voice telling you that your job is pitiful, the people you have to deal with are stupid.

If you do manage to leave your home, get to work, your day is still hell on earth. You will try to do your job; everything will be ten times harder for you than your co-workers to get done. That said, some relief comes from just being at the place you did not want to go to start with. Do you realize this? Probably not as your thoughts just keep changing, your mind never seems to rest.

When you go to leave work you are hit with a strange feeling, you did not want to go there, but for some reason inside you now do not want to leave. When you do and head home the thoughts of what you will do then starts to pour out. You know your hungry, but really do not want to eat. If you are on your medication, with luck you are, you will eat, many medications for bipolar tend to leave a hole in your gut. When you get home the day starts to seem like it did when you woke up.

Leave me alone, don't talk to me, why am I still here, what reason am I alive, should I just end it now and stop the pain.

You dig deep, who in your family will be hurt by your death. What will my spouse do, my insurance will not pay if I commit suicide, and can they make it without me. I don't want to be here but I don't want to hurt them.

That is if your blessed enough to have family to think about, people who do not have any close family will tend to go to the next level. The plans to end it begin; this is the extreme danger zone. This is where the pain is so great that a person suffering bipolar may just end their life then and there.

If you pull thru the day, you will want to get to bed as soon as you can, you will lay there and think, that is what bipolar people do, think, endlessly seeking answers. This part is also true during a manic episode, your mind races, but usually with different thoughts.

Now you sleep, just to wake up to the same issues you had the day before. This will continue until you pull out of your low.

If you know someone that is bipolar, do not be ignorant; this is not usually something that they will go wacky on you day to day. I hear people make the comment about a person, "They must be bipolar", what do they know about bipolar before they make that statement? Usually not much at all.

This article will be part of a series, please understand that the writer is not a doctor, but knows first hand the affects of this disease and wants to help others.